Sometimes life gets away from us, we get too busy, or too distracted or something unexpected happens that shakes up our usual routines. Recently, I inadvertently took two weeks off of floating and I was eager to get back in the tank. I had been meditating daily outside the tank, but my body was achy and looking forward to physical benefits that go along with floating. Here is my float story...
I stepped into the float room and did my initial float tank limbo to keep my chest and belly from submerging. I leaned back and as always the water perfectly embraced my body. I slowly swayed back and forth for a few minutes occasionally tapping the walls with a finger or a toe as the waves from my entry dissipated. I drew my attention to my breath and strength of my heartbeat. I felt my heart reverberating in my chest cavity generating tiny waves of water around my rib cage with each thump.
I stayed with my breath and gradually sensations arose all over my body. I mentally scanned from the crown of my head through my toes. I noted sharp shooting pains from my right shoulder, deep rumblings from my intestines and powerful vibrations from all 10 toes. I am grateful for my Vipassana meditation practice, it has trained me to observe all these sensations, but to remain as equanimous as possible. These strong sensations gradually give way to more subtle ones. Eventually, my breath slowed and I drifted away. I feel like I have left my human avatar for the universe of vibration and energy. Ah... I feel at home.
Some unknown length of time passed in this in-between state when suddenly fear jolted through my entire body. My heart raced and I began breathing quite heavily. I felt as if I was a bunny being chased by a pack of ravenous wolves.There are jarring flashes of light vivid that I began to question whether or not I was still alone in the float tank. I managed to settle back, thinking of the advice we often give to floaters when anxiety surfaces.
BE WITH IT. OBSERVE IT. STUDY HOW IT RISES AND OBSERVE HOW IT WILL PASS AWAY.
I was restless and struggled to return to my peaceful state. Eventually, the anxious sensations dissipated, my breath slowed and returned to a deep state of peace from being with my own nothingness, then... beep, Beep, BEEP!
My meditation session had ended and it was time to me to reenter the world little lighter, calmer and wiser than before. For me, every float is an opportunity to learn and grow, to release some baggage, to appreciate the impermanent nature of the universe and the impermanent nature of ourselves. One only needs to be quiet and still enough to observe it.
-Lindsay Reinhardt, Anicca Float Club, Inc. 2016 ©
Lindsay is the Co-owner/Operator of Anicca Float Club with her husband Paul Feyer. When she is not floating she can be found running around the Float Club, laughing like a hyena, riding her bicycle, eating scrumptious vegetarian food and striking random yoga poses.